My Day?

Another year added to my age. Birthdays .... was so looking forward to it when i was young. Where good food, laughter and presents are expected. But as I get older, birthdays seem to changed. Its a day that people telling me, I should be more mature as the years goes by and be more sensible. It kinda had a more serious tone.

Whats behind the meaning of celebrating one's birthday? To mark another year goes by without any harm. That the devil haven caught up with him yet?

Or another year closer to ur call on the death roll? Leaving all of the earthly belongings that does not last forever? Why specially celebrate the day that you were born? In my opinion, if you are happy no matter what day it is, it will be whatever day u made it to be.

Abit ironic that I am writing all these on my own birthday. Neither excited nor really looking forward. May be I have lost my sanity? reason of being happy or what so ever.

All of these does not really matters any more. Cuz not just birthdays, basically all the other reason for celebration seem so meaningless. Especially there no one special to share with. I would like to say sorry to all those friends who tried so hard to wish me on my birthday today. It just dun seem to be my usual joyous mood. But I am grateful to each of you for remembering the day my mum brought me to this world.

A New Year

A new entry for the new year. Basically nothing have changed much for me ... Better this way? Or is it .. who is there to tell ..

A feel of celebration is felt in the air

Quick glance at the crowd, frown in despair

With the party sound booming and plenty time to spare

All those people who are making merries without any care

Wish I could be one of them for once to be heckcare

What are the possibilities, the chances are rare

I just stood at the corner and watch fireworks flare

Beauty and sensation are all gone with a glare

If theres a standard for each, how do I fare

Looking back in the past I do not dare

All is left is go back to my laire